So. To follow up on yesterday’s post….
Fear. I have thought about this a good deal as it
has – to sometimes greater, sometimes lesser degrees – annoyed and/or plagued my
life. I think the most significant consequence of the choice of Adam and Eve to
disobey – to sin – was the entrance into the world – or rather, the entrance of
it into their world – of Fear. Fear
of what? Primarily, I think, of being judged. And considering the situation, it
was not an invalid fear.
However, here is what I see. During the narrative in
Genesis 3, the judgment in the form of a curse, was first and foremost, passed
on the snake. Then the ground was cursed on account of Adam’s disobedience. But
nowhere in that narrative does God come down on them in wrath. He tells them
what the results of their actions will be. But this is not ‘punishment,’ it is ‘cause
and effect’…there is something about a Law of Sin and Death?
But I don’t see God’s wrath in evidence in Genesis 3
except perhaps toward the snake…..
And yet, as a result of disobedience, this fear is a
daily companion with us. For me, I have often articulated it as ‘the fear of
being bad.’ And that is that little girl inside talking. Her vocabulary. And as
a child, it was one of the major fears I had – which made the events of my
childhood all the more cause for dissonance and despair. But really, I think,
at least for me, it boils down to a fear of sinning.
Or, to put it another way, our fears became superstitious.
What is superstition, after all, but the fear that if we do not do things right
– adhere to certain rites and rituals – bad things will happen. And you know,
in my experience, Christians look down on non-Christians for being ‘superstitious’ and
Protestants look down on Catholic ‘superstitions.’ But really, we Protestants
have our own superstitions.
How so? Well, I am just going to dive in to the deep
end and use an example that is sure to raise some hackles. But…at least within
the church circles I have been involved with as a child and adult, the whole ‘Sinner’s
Prayer’ has become, in my view, used and viewed in a largely superstitious way.
Before you start yelling at me, please hear me out. Consider: how many churches,
either overtly or subtly, suggest that if a person has not said the Sinner’s
Prayer out loud in front of witnesses with a certain list of items that must be
included, well---they probably aren’t really
saved. I know of people (I used to be one of them) who had a deep fear that if
friends and family members did not/had not said this prayer specifically, they
might not make it. And conversely, there is the belief that if you have said it in front of witnesses, then
you are gold – all is good. Nothing else really matters…..well, except that you
follow our rules (obey our rites)…..fear that not performing a specific ritual
will lead to bad things and performing it will lead to good things….Superstition.
Now that said, I am not saying that everyone that
has ever said the Sinner’s Prayer now has their salvation suspect. I am just saying
that if this external following of a rite – performing a ritual – is how we
measure whether someone is ‘one of us,’ we have devolved the whole mess into superstitious
fear.
See, when we turn the Gospels of Christ and/or the
words written in letters by the various apostles into rituals that must be
followed, the entire point gets lost. It becomes an exercise in external
behavior control – ticking off items on the list to see who is ‘in’ and who is ‘out.’
And in the process, Jesus gets shoved to the side in favor of the ritual.
And I get it. It is far easier – far less scary – to
obey the items on a checklist and feel justified by that (and use that to decide who is one of us) than it is to walk in
a continually developing relationship with the One whose eyes see to the very
core of us. Becoming a true friend – that is, acquainted with – God…to really
walk as his child… is daunting. It is far easier to spend our energies figuring
out the things about him and around him and making lists of these things and
rules – rites – for keeping them sacred, than it is to continually develop a
friendship, relationship knowing him. But that is the whole point. Without that
growing relationship (and all relationships grow or die, there is no lasting stasis),
what was the point, again….?
So, back to the whole sin thing….
Hmm…Jesus said that the main sin was not believing
in him and that judgment was for the devil. (See John 16:5-11)
Hmm…what Jesus did for us in dying and being raised,
dealt once and for all with the sin issue. (See Romans 8:3-4, Hebrews 10:11-18,
1 John2:1-2)
Maybe sin is not the issue. Not that we don’t still
sin – of course we do. But maybe that
is not the point. It is a given that we sin – all of us – but the point is that
the eternal problem of sin and how it positions us in eternity has been dealt
with once, for all. We are no longer a slave to this sin or the fear of it –
sin which was highlighted in stark relief by the Law. We have been set free
from that slavery – that fear of sin and sinning. And not being afraid of sin
does not (as some Christian leaders seem to fear) mean
lawlessness. We are now free from that Law of Sin and Death and bound
internally by the heart and the Spirit of Christ. But we no longer need to FEAR
sin, sinning or being judged.
So…I choose to let go (Papa, help me?) of the
superstitious fears of ‘doing it wrong’ and being thrown out as unfit – I choose
to pursue, wobbly, uncertain, deepening, beautiful relationship with the One
who made me and knows me and loves me beyond my ability to even take in.
